36.

May 18, 2022

fuck everything 

Fucking fuck every fucking thing in this god damn stupid fucking world 

I’m to fucking fat 

And too fucking depressed 

And I can’t fucking handle any of this shit anymore 

I want to do this 

And do that 

But to get there i need money 

Or insurance

Or connections 

Or any form of fucking social interaction 

I can’t fucking stand dealing with it 

Or being told to fucking “relax” 

I haven’t fucking relaxed in twenty-three fucking years 

I’m not magically gonna fucking relax now 

I wanna fucking be dead now

And i have been for fucking 5 years

I don’t want to fucking exist anymore 

I wann fucking throw myself off the goddamn fucking bridge

Or shoot myself in the fucking head 

Or fucking let a fucking train run over my body and completely ruined my body so there is nothing left 

Just like the fucking inside