Listen to My Tears

  June 4th, 2019 Sunrise It is the most calming moment of the day Just before the moon sets and the sun crests over the horizon In this moment, there is only you and nature There is you and the birds, awakening from their slumber and tweeting their morning songs There is you and the wind, still brisk from the night before There is you and the silence of a city, unaware of what the day will bring next. In this moment, there are no worries, no heartaches, no fear, no pain, no hesitation. The anxieties that plague our world don't exist in this moment, as we say goodbye to the night, the moon, the stars... And say hello to the sun and its ever glowing rays. But this moment will be short lived, for once it is gone- life shall begin again. The city will awaken and all the stresses of the day before shall return. At the end of this beautiful moment is when we crave for life to stop again For the moon to rise and put it on pause Only for the whole sequence to be started again.

May 8th, 2019 Mother's Day Mother’s Day  It draws nearer and I can’t help but replay the last four mother’s days over in my head  I can’t help but replay the last 19 mother days  I feel like my mind is currently a broken VCR, stuck on replay and never ending  The same images are playing over and over in front of my eyes. How do I get through this? I haven’t even thought about a holiday’s difference without you till now  Am I a horrible daughter for not remembering all those other days?  Was my first Christmas that much of a different one than the ones before?  My twentieth birthday, was that any different than the others?  Am I any different?  Has the sudden meaning of the holiday brought about these feelings?  Or has something changed within me? You always seemed to know the perfect words to say  The best phrase to get through the day  I don’t know how to control the words that mean to fly through my brain, I wish I had learne...