33.

March 31, 2022

my offering?

What do I have to offer? 

Nothing. 

My life has amounted to nothing and I have nothing to offer a school. 

I can’t function without a breakdown

I can’t get through a damn day without crying

I can’t offer a school anything other than a broken child and broken bank

When the fuck was I ever smart enough to even think of furthering my education?

I know I can't.

I’m not cut out for things like this. 

I have a “good gpa” 

But where is that going to get me 

I don’t work well with people

I don’t have outstanding talents 

All I have is a sad dream and want to learn

How does one even get through something like that 

“Write an essay about why we should choose you”

More like tell us everything that is interesting about you.

How do I do that when there is nothing interesting

The most interesting thing i have going for me is that I am depressed as shit and a motherless child 

I’ve been adult longer than I’ve been a child 

I have nothing more to offer than that 

Now how do I tell a college that?