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March 26, 2022

Stop

How do you stop yourself from crying?

How do you not feel like every second you breathe,

The next you will fall apart?

How do you stop the pain? 

The darkness? 

The ever enclosing need to no longer exist?

I'm beginning to feel like these feelings may never flee.

Like they may never leave me alone. 

Except in one instance. 

Except in death 

Only then will I longer cry for useless reasons.

I will no longer feel the crushing weight of the world on my mind every second.

In death I won't need to feel pain and sadness.

I won't be here 

So there will be nothing to feel. 

If only life could be lived like that. 

I'm already not here, but I feel everything ten fold 

Why must it be?

Why must I be?

Why must everything be?

Why can't we all be snapped away in an instant?

Why can't the bombs be dropped and the race wiped from the earth? 

Why can't the simulation be reset? 

Why can't everything just cease to exist in the present time?

Why can't everything just stop...

I just want everything to stop.