31.

 February 1, 2022

nothing 

I want to scream 

I want to cry 

I want to throw myself off of a bridge 

Ive given up on work 

And life 

Because there is nothing here I like anymore 

My friends are gone 

Like normal 

My house is to loud with drunken idiocy 

And all i want to do right now is leave 

Not the building 

Not the town 

Not the country 

But the world 

I don’t know what to write 

Or what to do 

All i know is i don’t want to be here 

Or hear the notifications of annoyance dinging every minute 

I have short lived, fleeting moments of happiness

But they are followed by deep, dark, depression 

Loneliness 

When i think of who is there to talk to, 

The list ends before it even begins 

No one is there who will understand or help 

No one is there who will provide me any sort of insight 

I am beyond alone 

If one is the loneliest number 

Than i’m beyond one 

I’m negative one thousand 

Im so far beyond lonely that there is no way for anyone to join me 

No one care for me anymore 

I don’t even care for me anymore 

So what is there left to do?

How do you find yourself a friend when there is nothing left of you?