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October 3, 2021

glorified hell 

Nothing makes me more depressed than school 

Than having to “work” with other people 

And having to do fucking useless assignments that will amount to nothing but a grade in the end 

I hate the fucking bullshit teachers force useless information down our throats 

And dreams that will be crushed by the reality of life 

Everything will amount to nothing when this semester is done

I’ll still be fucking stuck at JCPenney's 

Hating my job more than physically possible 

Hating my life more than i already do now 

I will amount to nothing at the end of this semester 

You know what i will have? 

An associates degree that will get me no where because everyone and their fucking mother wants you to attend a 4-year college and get a bachelors degree for an entry level job 

I will amount to being someone's glorified, paid assistant 

If I'm even that fucking lucky 

There's nothing left in this world that is worth all this shit for 

Work is hell 

School is hell 

Home is hell 

Life is hell 

I 

Live

In

A

Fucking

Glorified 

Hell 

So someone just take the 50-caliber right to my face 

Blow it to fucking bits 

Burn my body 

Put it in the ground 

I don’t fucking care 

I don’t want to be here anymore 

I haven't wanted to be here for a very long time 

If i only i had the fucking balls to fucking go through with it 

If only i had knives for nails so i could claw my skin away from the muscle 

So i could bleed to fucking death 

And be done 

With everything