21.

 May 1, 2021

i want to be dead 

Living is insufferable 

Having to deal with reality is disheartening 

Barely surviving is what im doing 

I want to bash my head against the 

I want to never wake up again 

I want to be forgotten by the world and the afterlife 

To live is the breathe and currently life makes it feel like im suffocating 

I can’t find joy in anything 

I can’t even tolerate the family i live with 

I hate everything 

Everyone 

I hate life 

Everyday is a struggle to get through 

To not breakdown ever 3 seconds 

Or have the strength to wake up 

My body is heavy and i hate it 

My mind is giving up and i hate it 

My life is a shit hole and i hate it 

I don’t want to talk to family

I have 2 friends i can never see 

And everything else is just annoying noise that can never be silenced 

I hate my life

I hate everything about my life 

I hate the city i live in 

The people i live with 

The state in stuck 

The world im forced to reside 

Thinking about anything but death makes me sick 

My mind lives in the shadows, craving release that will never come 

Its to much to take a gun to the head 

Or swallow pills i can’t keep down 

Id fuck it up anyway 

Hit something thats not important and still live 

Or not take enough a wake up 

Living is a struggle 

And i want to struggle to end 

Bash my head against the wall 

Claw the brains out od my head 

I 

Want

To

Be

Dead