18.

 September 17, 2020

sleep and never wake up

I wanna go to bed and never wake up 

I wanna sleep and dream in a world I control 

I wanna forget that everything that has ever existed- didn’t 

It’s easier to sleep 

It’s easier to dream a useless dream

Than live in a world where dreams don’t come true 

Where dreams have never come true 

Where everything you do comes with a price 

Where nothing is ever going to be enough 

To me 

To my superiors

To my family 

I always feel like nothing will ever amount to what people want from me 

From what I want from me 

Dreaming in my head is just easier to do 

It’s easier than facing the reality that nothing will ever be what I want it to be 

Sleeping is easier than living 

It’s easier than having to shuffle through each day like a soulless body 

Cause that’s all I am