16.

 April 16, 2020

Damn Corona 

For someone with crippling anxiety, this pandemic is really throwing me for a loop

And not a small one 

A loop that feels like a sprilling roller coaster going 100 miles an hour where your seconds away from being thrown off the track 

I’ve lost all control it feels 

My job, my one escape from this damn house, is closed with no plan to open any time soon

My friends, who I barely got to see before all this happened, are now demanded to stay away 

My concert, the one thing I was looking forward to this year, is postponed and will more than likely be canceled 

I’m stuck within my four walls, slowly losing my mind over and over again 

Getting agitated by every little thing that happens or doesn't go right 

I constantly feel the need to scream, cry, and give up at all times 

I’ve lost hope for the good things in life 

I’ve lost hope for the world and the normalcy we all took for granted

I’ve lost all hope because I know there is no coming back from this. 

There’s only despair ahead of us 

A long 

Dark 

Treacherous road of despair.