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September 30, 2019

My Mask 

My mask

I’ve worn it so long I’ve forgotten what it looked like 

I’ve forgotten what I look like 

I've forgotten who the hell I am 

Who I was 

Who I want to be 

Everyone in my life has seen my mask

I’ve learned to wear it well 

Few have seen beyond it 

And only those few know my secrets 

My deepest secrets

But even they haven't seen it all 

There’s a mask in every part of my life 

At home

In school

With family 

Everywhere

I have a mask 

I wear a mask 

Most people don’t even realize it's there 

They don't realize that the me they see 

Is not the me inside 

They don't know the dreams I feel I’m losing 

They don't know the darkness that lives in my mind 

They don't know the life I've lost

They don't know anything 

And I feel that no one does 

No one knows how deep my secrets go 

The dark places my mind can wander if I don't control it 

They don't know anything 

And I’m beginning to realize that I don't either